The Other Side of Bliss.

There was an accident outside our community tonight. It was a white mini-van and a small white pick-up truck. When I saw the white minivan, I held my breath without realizing it, praying without realizing it, that it wasn’t our next door neighbor. When we passed by and saw the woman on the stretcher, maybe it was bad, but I breathed a sigh of relief that it wasn’t a neighbor we knew and my prayer changed to one that she would be OK.

Someone ran a red light in front of me the other day. His light had been red for at least 5 seconds before he sailed through. The guy next to me was so angry about it that he blared his horn at the person. Too late, of course, the law breaker was far on down the road by that time. I was just thankful that I had been checking my son in his car seat and hadn’t gone when my light had turned green.

I finally received my disability payment today from the state. They pay that stuff by issuing a debit card now, which I guess is supposed to be all hip and cutting edge, which is what I thought at first. But then I realized, it’s kind of a pain in the rear for those who already have bank accounts that they like, because then you have to create yet another login and password, initiate a funds transfer, which then takes up to 2 business days to complete. Plus, the debit card is issued in an account with Bank of America, which is not a bonus to me since I absolutely loathe that bank.

I caught a cold from someone last week and have been praying that William doesn’t catch it. If he manages to somehow avoid getting it from his main provider of food who breathes on him, and can’t avoid coughing on him, it will truly be a miracle. But then he’s a miracle, so maybe it’s not that far fetched of a hope that he remain healthy? I took some Children’s benadryl to try and help with my cold symptoms, but am being very careful about what I take as I don’t want my milk supply to suffer. As a result, I’ve had a couple bouts of insomnia this past week. Apparently, I’m one of those people that benadryl, instead of making me sleepy, has the opposite effect. Let me tell you, it really sucks to lie in bed listening to my newborn baby cooing in his sleep from his co-sleeper, hearing the house creak around me, knowing the minutes and then hours are ticking by and that everyone in the house is asleep but me.

I guess I should be glad I didn’t have any other orifices that stuff could come out of, because my ears are crackling, my eyes are red, my nose is dripping, my mouth is coughing out stuff that shouldn’t see the light of day, my breasts leak milk, my southern area is still working on recovery… and that just about sums up how I’ve felt this week.

The other night, I was nursing William and my nose was dripping. Rather than drip on my son, I shoved a kleenex up the offending nostril and just sat there, defeated, while William ate in blissful oblivion. I must have been quite a sight, because my husband walked by and stared for a second, told me how sorry he was for me, and then started laughing. Five minutes later, my mom did the same exact thing. They both apologized for laughing at me, but honestly, I can’t blame them. In fact, I almost wish I had asked them to take a picture of it, because I’m all about recording the reality of the moment.

Anyway, I think I’m on the mend, or at least I hope I am. My husband thinks he may be catching some form of something and is trying desperately to find someone to blame it on, but since his symptoms in no way resemble mine, I’m not allowing him to lay it at my doorstep. So far William hasn’t caught it, thank God, and let’s continue to pray that he stays healthy and strong. Because let’s face it, I would rather be the one with insomnia and sick than for it to be the other way around!



Filed under Gross Can Fascinate, I Worry A lot, Love/Loathe, Our Kid is Cute, Sometimes I Sleep

15 responses to “The Other Side of Bliss.

  1. Sorry you’re not feeling well! 😦 Hope William stays healthy!

    A debit card? Really? That’s weird… so… you can use it at the grocery store? Or… I’m confused. heh.


    • Yep. It’s a debit visa card. At first I thought it’d be cool, but now it’s just tedious. Just another account to contend with. Blah.

      My doula/lact. consultant says that oftentimes (not always) when the mama gets sick she passes antibodies to the baby in breastmilk and baby stays healthy. I’m so hoping that’s what happens here.

  2. Noonie

    If you’re breast feeding William should be fine, as he’s getting your antibodies. Hugs, just remember tomorrow is another day and you’ll get there. Sounds to me like you’re due a day in bed just feeding, William is growing and prob needs to boost the supply. Enjoy the snotty snuggles love Noonie.

  3. I’m so sorry you’re sick and having insomnia for reasons other than having a newborn in the house! Like Noonie said, you shouldn’t have too worry too much about William since you’re breastfeeding.

    Too bad you didn’t get a picture of the Kleenex moment–oh well, you can still laugh about it for eternity, even without the picture.

    Hope you’re better soon!

  4. Hope you feel better soon! Like Noonie said, I think William will be fine. You’re giving him the best diet to keep him healthy. Just take care of yourself the best you can.

  5. Tony

    Love you cutie and baby too. Miss you guys sooooo much, NANANANANA

  6. I was going to say what has already been said a couple of times.. that William will be fine, he has that magnificent breast milk antibody to protect him!

    I found that having children really brings home a lot of stuff… accidents are more profound, hearing of illiness and disease brings more feelings to the surface… I wasn’t a sappy person til I had kids…

    Sorry about the leaky openings, at least you know you aren’t dehydrated! 😉

  7. Lynne

    Ditto on the breast feeding and a healthy baby. It’s the best medicine known to man. I too am an “anti benadryl” type of woman and feel your pain. I haven’t met too many of us, but we are out here. I am so sorry that the “up all night” fatigue is not more directly related to William. The nasties are going ’round and everyone seems to have one form or another of it. In our house, it was all intestinal. Fortunately I escaped it, but my husband and son did not. Good times. Feel better…TRY to sleep when he does and cherish these precious days. Get some fresh air and realize that in about 10 minutes, this will all just be a silly memory. To no one’s surprise…you are a natural and doing a fantastic job.

  8. So sorry to read of your cold and drippy nose…Dear Dear William–he sounds like such a Dream Baby…I was thinking that he is protected by your milk–the anti-bodis, I believe….Anyway…I hope you feel better very very soon and that William stays “well”, and Tony, too!

  9. Cat

    I hope William stays healthy, too. My poor nephew has has horrible colds and sinus infections since September and he’s only 9.5 months old!! In October my sister would put him outside in the backyard, in his stroller and leave him there for a while (covered up, of course) but the cold air was the only time he could decongest enough to sleep. Poor guy.

    I also hope you start to feel better as well! Not getting enough sleep isn’t going to help things. I didn’t even know Benedryl could have that sort of reverse effect! 😦

  10. you are such a funny girl, even while sick … i guess that little william eases even the flu symptoms … may blessings flow and colds depart!

  11. Oh. my. Goodness. Jeanette! Where have I been? I couldn’t have been away from your blog for so long ,but I guess I have been. I so didn’t know you’d had a baby!! I am so very, very thrilled for you! Truly thrilled. Congratulations to you both. Wow….. how cool is this?!! (Oh, and feel better soon, ok?) 🙂 Blessings, Debra

  12. ((((hugs)))) and prayers that you feel better and that William stays healthy! I’m so thankful that you stayed safe with that car running that light. How scary! Prayers that you return to bliss soon!

  13. PY

    Wishing you and your family good health.

  14. Traci Dolan

    Hope you’re feeling better by now. Love hearing about William.