Love & Loathe — 05/13/10


* One of the aquatic aerobic instructors at my gym always wants to do 30 minutes of weird balancing and bouncing with fun noodles and handbells. She usually works Tuesdays and that’s why I chose Thursdays for my “early day” at work, to avoid her class. But she’s been subbing for the Thursday teacher and it’s annoying. I still worked my early day today for consistency there, but avoided the class tonight, which made me sad. Better sad than annoyed, though.

* When people send an Excel spreadsheet and don’t preview it to ensure that it will print properly. If you’ve ever received one of those, you know what I mean.

*Mother’s day, as I’m sure you can imagine, was a bittersweet day for me. I should have been feeling my little one kicking me from the inside out, but it didn’t work out that way.

* My body has absolutely no idea what it’s doing. Well, actually, I’m sure it’s doing what it’s supposed to be doing, but I have no clue where I’m at in my cycle. Blood work is normal, non-pregnant and that’s about all I know.


* Having lunch with my friend, Grace. Everyone should have a friend like her in their life.

* My sister-in-law, Marigold, who gave me a gift on Mother’s Day which touched my heart deeply. It was exactly right for that day, and for where I am in the processing of our loss emotionally.

* Seeing Tony’s east coast brother (and his family). They came out with the intent to see Grandpa, but he passed away before they could get here. It was so good to see them, though, despite the circumstances.

* When appropriate, shrugging things off and saying, “That’s out of my control…” It’s so freeing!

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16 responses to “Love & Loathe — 05/13/10

  1. julie

    so you printed about a thousand pages in excel? πŸ˜€

    i thought of you on mother’s day…

    grace is the best!

    i hope your regular teacher comes back soon. 😦

    • Would have been a thousand pages if I hadn’t been suspicious. But then it took me, like, five minute of formatting and shrinking and cell resizing, and interpreting which block of cells were related to that block of cells, to get it to print properly. So annoying!

      Thank you for your kind thoughts.

      On the gym schedule, she’s supposed to be back this week. Grrr.

  2. grrrace

    OH, MAN. i hated those unpreviewed excel spreadsheets. they’d piss me off! hehe.

    awww, you are the best. πŸ™‚ i’m glad we got to have lunch together. and next week, too!


    • Excel spreadsheets should ALWAYS be previewed for printing purposes. Always. It should be an Excel law. hehe

      Noooo, YOU’RE the best. And we get to see each other tomorrow! xo

  3. Caryl

    I’m thankful that you have such a good “Tony family” when your family is to scattered.
    Noodles and handbells are okay for arobics for five minutes. After that, I wanted some real exercise!!
    I thought it was because I couldn’t get the hang of how to stay afloat. I didn’t know that you were annoyed too. πŸ™‚

    • I tolerated it, but then you pointed out how annoying it was and I was all, “Hey, yeah, it kind of is!” So thanks for that.

      I, too, am thankful for Tony’s family. πŸ™‚

  4. Cat

    I get those excel sheets all the time from the Upper Admin at the university. So when I go to print the documents for my boss it prints a billionty pages! What the heck! So I am right with you on that one!

    Now that Grace finally has a passport maybe she can come visit me and I can experience her awesomness in person. haha

    • Psshaw. Upper admin should know better, but then, like I learned in my previous job, a lofty title does not a competent employee make.

      Grace has much awesomeness… πŸ™‚

  5. stacey

    one day at a time with the whole, hormone and heart ache process. grief is a funny thing, it hits so hard some days and other days you almost forget, almost.
    the hormones and cycle thing seems to just be all over the place. i hope it will figure itself out for you soon.

    • Yeah… I feel like the miscarriage rocked my world and I try not to focus on it, but it seems to keep coming out when I write here. 😦
      Hormones are hard things to deal with… I just have to remember I’m not in control of them, never have been.

  6. I was thinking about you and praying for you at Mass on Mother’s Day. No matter what, I think of you as a mom, although your time with your baby was brief.

  7. tricia

    I was thinking about you on mother’s day as well.


  8. py

    I could easily tell that Jammie, you are well loved by many. πŸ™‚

    From the acts of love from Marigold, your friendship with Grace, Tony’s love for you, and well, I am sure there are more.